Saturday, May 3, 2014

Derek, Marilyn and the Width of my Hand

Lord, remind me that my days are numbered- how fleeting my life is. You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is but a moment to you; at best, each of us is but a breath.
Psalm 39:4-6

As I sit in our tiny 300 sq ft apartment and listen to the rain tap my window, I am reminded of what's important in life: chocolate how we spend it. Too often we waste our lives in jobs we hate, working for someone we want to stab in the jugular have no respect for, living somewhere we don't want to be (not us, we move every five minutes). Maybe it's just our generations' overabundance of participation trophies and Marilyn Monroe quotes, like this one below, that has us believing that the American Dream sucks (which it does). By the by, I'm pretty sure the whole hipster movement was born out of this quote, because that is ridiculousness at it's finest, and god-forbid they be anything close to boring.
I know what you're thinking, "easy for you to say Brianna, you don't have a job!" I prefer to think of it as an extended vacation, (plus I'm in the middle of a career change so it's fine, people!) but let's be honest here, unless you're galloping into work everyday like a freaking steed, stoked on life to start your day, you're probably reading this and saying to yourself, "oh crap! Brianna is SO right!" I know, I know, I'm smart. Jk lolz.

But anywhoosies, back to what this ramble-fest blog post is actually about. This life is so fleeting, why waste anymore of it doing something you hate just to die in a freak gasoline fight accident? Life is about love. Loving yourself, loving everyone around you and loving the big guy upstairs who created us all simply because He had so much love to share. Not about climbing the corporate ladder, chasing the American Dream or working for the man and life sure as heck isn't about how much money you can hoard for yourself.

Do you understand that the world does not revolve around you and your "do whatever it takes, ruin as many people's lives, so long as you can make a name for yourself as an investigatory journalist, no matter how many friends you lose or people you leave dead and bloodied along the way, just so long so you can make a name for yourself as an investigatory journalist, no matter how many friends you lose or people you leave dead and bloodied and dying along the way"

"We are merely moving shadows, and our busy rushing ends in nothing. We heap up wealth, not knowing who will spend it." Psalm 39:6

(Well, I'll actually be the one spending it, on student loans. Thanks 'Merica for convincing the youth of the nation that higher education is the only way to make something out of yourself and then financially-raping us all while we contract Hepatitis A from a nasty walk-in clinic because we can't afford Obamacare*.)


*Just kidding, thanks for the health insurance mom!